i see things in unusual way

well, I’m dissapeared for weeks not to comeback with nothing to brag.

and here it is.

I’m officially a working girl now! Pretty big news,huh?

Uti, the go-wherever-the-wind-blows-me girl, has now officially opens her laptop for something else,not just for 9gag or tumblr or doing homework or watching sitcoms. Suck it, bitches!

And I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing.

It’s a completely different area from what I was doing at college. Different objects, different tasks, different place, and of course different people. God knows how terrible I am if it comes to meet new people. I am now freaking out.

But I mean, I love it here. This is a very small firm but the field they’re working at is very interesting. At least it support my dream to be a project manager. There’s so much to learn in here. And I am more or less has familiar with my tasks. Writing description, tweeting, all that I’ve been doing in campus. But still, the stakes are high. Here, I was not expected to make mistakes. I have to do everything quick and right. And for those people who knew me, they’ll agree if I say I’m screwed. 

But I have to push myself. I have to see where’re my limits are, because I haven’t done anything yet. I’m being too lazy in my comfort zone. Time to be a big girl now. I have to get myself ready. 

So wish me luck, people. 

sejak akhir semester tiga,gue punya ritual yang belum pernah absen dilakukan; jalan-jalan sama anak-anak kelompok riset. untuk semester ini harusnya jalan-jalannya masih nanti setelah UAS, tapi minggu ini diadakan jalan-jalan darurat, to commemorate my birthday! dan sekalian juga traktiran wanda jadian.

jadilah hari minggu kemarin kita jalan-jalan lagi.it has been a really fun day!! pertama kita makan siang dulu di d’cost.habis itu kita cus ke PP.niatnya mau nonton 21jumpstreet, tapi karena belum keluar, jadinya anak-anak pengen nonton REC 3 aja, film spanyol tentang zombie. Dwicky somehow amat kekeuh mau nonton Battleship aja. Gue ditengah kegalauan dan kebimbangan (karena gue tidak suka horror neither sci-fi) akhirnya memilih REC 3 dengan pertimbangan toh di REC 3 lebih rame dan kalo menjijikkan tinggal tutup mata aja.

Habis itu kita turun ke nanny’s pavilion sambil nunggu filmnya tayang jam 7.kita ngobrol,foto-foto,dan main truth or truth. Quality talk banget sama mereka.

Habis itu sesuai ritual biasanya,kita balik ke pasar festival buat karokean.jadilah menumpahkan segala jenis kegalauan disana.Habis karoke,waktu balik ke mobil dimas, ta-daa! Ternyata they’ve prepared a gift for me!! It’s a bag, and it’s turquoise, my fave colour ever! Wanda juga dapat kado,boneka beruang warna ijo,warna kesukaan wanda juga. Unyu abis geng riset ini :”)

Love em all. Thankyou again for everything! for the talk,and the laugh,and the stupid movie, and the gift,and the very kind ear to listen,and putting me in a new perspective,dimas, udib, wanda, dan dwicky :)

P.s : sad thing, udib lost her phone in inul vista. i’m so sorry for her lost,tapi semoga segera dapet pengganti yg jauh lebih bagus ya nak.amin :’)

There are certain things in life where you know it’s a mistake but you don’t really know it’s a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, “Yup, that was a mistake”. So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you’ll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not. And damn it, I made no mistakes. I’ve done all of this: my life, my relationship, my career mistakes-free. Does any of this make sense to you?

that’s a quote from how i met your mother. Lily bilang begitu ke Ted waktu Ted berusaha mencegah dia mencari beasiswa keluar negeri. Masalahnya,lily mau menikah. It’s not the right time for her to jump out of town to get some stupid degree.

I feel related to her words. I mean, i am living my life really carefully. I never do anything that they said will cause harm. Gue selalu bilang kalo gue ngga bisa dilarang kalau belum pernah mencoba, but really gue belum pernah melakukan apapun. Gue tidak pernah mencoba merokok. I’ve tried drink once and it was awful. Gue nurut sama orang tua gue. Hasilnya? Hidup gue lurus. Terlalu lurus. Sampe gue sekarang tidak merasa hidup.

So, should I try to make some mistakes?